Abyss

I am

I am an abyss

a void that even I do not acknowledge

I have to wonder if its shame

am i so disgusted with who I have become..

I walk around the edge

daring myself to look in

afraid to see just what

I am

the pain that fails to register anymore

I am the smoke I exhale as I let go of emotions I ignore

I am comatose dreaming of waking life

fuck going through the motions

im past that

the motions have ceased

I would say im lost but being found has no meaning

I am

so incredibly fake

I feel? I feel what? What I know will get the least stares..

I am

an empty, efficient automaton

input what you like, ill always have a response

ill always tell you enough to look like I care

ill always lie enough to remain unnoticed

I am

someone I stopped recognizing a long time ago

Fuck a happy ending.

I haven't written in quite a while, and I am well aware just how convoluted that sounds. I needed to get that out though. Til next time..

-Sour